Sunny Side Up

so it's sunday and i swear this is the hardest part of my blog for me. the photos isn't hard, it's just time consuming. the poetry isn't hard, im just out of practice so i hate everything i write. but this section is the hardest part i think because i don't see myself as a sunny person. i'm realistic. if you want to look at the glass and say it's half full then that's your prerogative. i would say, "well if it was full to begin with and now it's not then it's half empty. if it was empty and you filled it then, yes, it is half full".

it's realistic. i'm realistic. and sometimes, it sucks. but hey, reality sucks and life sucks.

sometimes.
not always.



and this is something i tend to forget very, very easily. and i know this is something i need to work on. i don't intend to be all sunshine and lolipops but just a little bit more.. skittles, shall we say?

my sunny side up is dedicated to THE EX today. we had a talk, and when i say "talk" i mean, i pretty much talked not nicely AT him instead of to him. but, after all was said and done, he understood it came from a place of love and friendship and thanked me sincerely. he knows i don't always mean to yell or be angry but he also knows he invokes this side of me like no one can BUT... it's usually because i care and in a weird way, this works.

so, in spite of the oppositeness of the situation, there was a good result.

also, another sunny moment was the girls nite i had last nite. ROLLER DERBY! although it wasn't as contact impacted as i would've wanted it to be, it was fun to go out with the girls, get some drinks and be redonk. but, out of the girls nite's ive been having, i've become closer with friends i've had for six years but have also started to make a new friend. invite her into our group. don't know if i've mentioned her yet but, it's Leah. she's the gf of the ex's best friend who used to be my best friend but that friendship crashed and burned. anyway, i didn't really like Leah but that's because i was being a bitch for no reason. once i put that aside, i've come to find that she's really cool and so i've slowly started making a new friend. it's kinda nice. we have our first girl date on friday just the two of us for a movie and snacks. pretty excited if i do say so myself lol

so Sunny Side Up.. let's try this again shall we?

Until next sunday...